It's Sunday today...21 December to be precise. I spent all day at the beach, it was surprisingly hot for a December HK winter. Looks like every place is experiencing a different weather with snow falling in places like LA and Dubai.

Sitting alone on a beach full of happy people, I smiled to myself. The smile didn't last for long as I felt tremendously lonely, it's not that I didn't have friends or family to take with me, I just needed to be alone, you know - 'me with myself time'. I wanted to soak up all the pain I could possibly feel within me, hoping to erase pain from my life and my body. Then I laughed, because I was hoping for the impossible. The next comforting thought that I had was that every cloud has a silver lining, after every night comes a morning and after all pain, comes peace and love. I am still a believer and I won't ever give up.

I don't know when this painful spell will end, when I will come out of the depression I'm going through.
She waits....in pain....in silence.