Why do people stop loving people? Why do feelings change? The volumes of hurt it causes is unrealized.

I want to be me again....please =/

I don't care if he's changed - I just want him back=/

I want him back...I'm not the same without him, a piece is missing without him.

I hope he hasn't changed the way he feels about me.

My past actions were a result of insecurity.

Every girl needs to know someone is there for her and loves her the same, I hope I didn't cross any lines by asking for that.

I'm really not a mean person...you know that right?....Suicidal thoughts swim all around me in this crowded world. That's not a good thought I know.....only one thing can fix this.

Wish it were as easy as superglue..............

~Broken angel~

A better day is on it's way, I see a ray of light, I still believe in you God - I haven't given up.

Carry me along like you always have and smile with me when we shine through :)

*Hugs you*

On another note - thanks for letting me see Federer live - that was such a memorable evening~

I never knew eating, sleeping, even drinking water -basically living a normal life could be so hard :'(

Dear God...

Tomorrow is a new day

Tomorrow is also a new life.

A new city, a new road, new faces and new trees.

A trace remains with me

A trace of remembrance

A trace of happiness

A trace of joy

A bitter trace to finalize

The story of my learning years

Learn I shall continue

Learn I must

If living is worth anything at all then it is learning that stands tall.

Bitter words have scratched the heart

Ignorance is the painful part

Be quick and show me more

As I closely approach your door

Accept me with arms open wide

The only truth is that you will never leave my side

Believe I do, believe in you.

Pyaar Hum Ko Bhi Hai
Pyaar Tum Ko Bhi Hai

To Yeh Kya Silsile Ho Gaye

Bewafa Hum Nahin
Bewafa Tum Nahin

To Kyon Itne Gile Ho Gaye

Chalte Chalte Kaise
Yeh Faasle Ho Gaye

Kya Pata Kahan Hum Chale

I really need to know why and how =/

You let them win......we lost.

The time then and the time now seem so different from one another.

I know I made it then, I hope to make it this time too.

I have a feeling I will, I feel good and happy about this inside.

Better in time :)

Being alone and feeling unloved is the worst feeling ever.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so ignored like I don't even exist....

A lil bit taken off CB's Electric guitar - the bit that describes my feelings with this whole situation so well.

Wish I didn't know you, got me feeling stuck.
I can't let you go, just my luck.
Falling down without you, can you pick me up?
And now I cant get you off my head.

Losing my composure...for sure..................................... . . .

Typhoon 9 and my inner self

Today is the 23rd of August, a special day for me - for no apparent reason :)
It was a mix of my love for nature, family and accomplishment. I like to analyze situations and life on the whole, from a bird's eye view in my head.

When we were all on the terrace tonight, with the rain pouring down lightly and the wind whispering in my ear and blowing on my face and through my hair and the magnificent view , I was so thankful for what I have and I'm enjoying every bit of it, even with life's shortcomings, you haven't given me much to complain about.... :)

*Salutes you* and *Thanks you* and ofcourse..... *Loves you*

In love relationships there is a fine line between pleasure and pain. Infact it's a common belief that a relationship without pain is a relationship not worth having. To some, pain implies growth.
But how do we know when the growing pains stop and the pain pains take over? Are we pessimists or optimists if we continue to walk on that fine line?

When it comes to relationships, how do we know when enough is enough???

"Bubble Bubble in the Air"

I saw a cartoon this morning on 'Baby First' which was pretty funny! It also got me thinking...

What they were showing is that out of the blue an object would appear and this little creature and a friend had to create a bubble to resemble the object - you know - small little bubbles like the one's we used to blow out when we were kids from those colorful soap bottles! It was really alot of fun to watch and I was laughing so much because it looked so very cute and silly!

Then I thought to myself - wouldn't it be awesome if we got what we thought of - the bubble shaped image would be transformed to the real thing! And you know what - I keep hearing that it's possible to get what you dream of as long as the dream is strong enough.....we as humans DO have that power...just that we don't make enough use of it. Hmmmmm...

The X – Factor….the Ex-Factor

So what is this big deal about the whole X component? How do you define it? Does the X factor last for always or does it run out at some point of time? Do you need something to keep it running or am I just being cynical?

The X factor is by no doubt different for everyone – there’s this one thing that makes everyone tick in its own unique way and that one thing is again – unique for every single one of us.

The X factor applies to people, friends, partners, jobs, food, and countries – just about anything generic.

Yesterday I was thinking to myself – does the X factor ever change into an ‘Ex-factor’? These are a few things that I think are responsible for the conversion speaking solely about couples:

• Finding out something about him after a significant period of time that you never thought could be associated with him
• When he starts spending more time with his friends than with you
• When he forgets things about you and the both of you
• When there are gaps of silence and you don’t know what to talk about anymore
• When he thinks about himself and what he feels like more than what you want and feel
• When he says – “that was in the beginning – this is now”
• When it's ok if he does it but it's a crime if you do it.
  
• When you start asking yourself this question more and more – “can I really spend the rest of my life with him???”
• Last but not the least – when you start envying your friends for what they have going with their partners as opposed to what you have.

That being said I have to emphasize that the same goes for the opposite sex – simply substitute the ‘he’ with a ‘she’ and you’ll get the picture. I never try to be biased when I write so for clarity’s sake….

It is something to think about – if everyone knew what was responsible for the ‘Ex’ factor they would avoid behaving in such a way but on the other hand if everyone knew how to get that ‘X’ factor they would do everything to have it and get what they want – the right job, the right partner, the right stocks! True to its word – life is unpredictable – you never know what’s coming at you next…the X or the Ex?

The only truth about life is nature.

You get what you see.

The best part is, nature is always a treat to the eye, it could be a snow covered field, a sunny beach with clear blue waters or even a rich green forest with the moon shining upon it which gives you that 'time stopped for a while' feeling.

That's the only thing I believe in - nature....

Aaj Main Khush Hoon :)

So I was actually dreading today - the whole idea of the plastic - ness and the fake - ness. It was the co. 6 yr party.

Fortunately, from plastic it turned out to an intellectual session with me n one of the senior analysts discussing biotech and the market in general and it's potential - I felt like a nerve that was sleeping was tickled and awoken - it felt better than the peach beer I was drinkin!

It's bad but I don't know why I sometimes need people to believe in me for me to actually believe in mysef - it's not that I don't believe in myself - it's just that I lose myself along the way somewhere at times amidst all the work.

I need to find me - I need all the possible help and more than ever I need my own personal input.

The Cherry on the Cake

This entry is on the more 'bold' side, so as a forewarning - don't be freaking out!

Everyone thinks a perfect guy is a guy who's loving, funny, rich, athletic, good looking (this could turn out different as long as he's a darl of a guy on the inside!!), honest and blah blah - the list is never ending as is life itself. A scary thought is - what if there's this guy that has it all - but is an absolute turn off in bed? Or what if he doesn't know the right moves - and hits the wrong spot at the wrong time and leaves the right spot yearning for something...

The cherry on the cake is when he knows just what to do - when you want it - the way you want it - so that when you finally get lost in twilight you don't feel like it could have been better - and then think about it - you could never confront him about it either (well not politely or subtly atleast) It's all or nothing...

No wonder every man wonders where the G spot is and how they can find it( I have heard jokes about men wondering if there is a map that they could refer to - how L-A-M-E is that???!!!)- and until recently I didn't even know that men have G spots too!

Everything goes 2-ways in life, and ofcourse so does this - I think it's important for couples to talk this out - and if he's not doing it right - he's gotta be told so that the perfect guy can have the cherry too - and if she's doing a less than average job, then she needs to be aware of that.

The cherry is out there - the cake is out there - but are they both at the same place?

:] Waiting....!

The Circle

When will the circle stop? When will we find the way out? Is this a wasteful effort or will it reap fruit? I only wish for the simple things, the things that make me smile to myself, is that something that has to be added to the bucket list? I kept taking it for granted and never realised that one day I would have to pray for it, wish for it, ask for it - the worst feeling ever.

NO ONE - Alicia Keys - :)

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'causeEverything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there is no one
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you...