Sometimes when everything is not going right in life-and everything seems soooo very wrong - I still manage to smile and be happy - today's one of those days-and it's strange-I don't understand this feeling and where it stems from - but it doesn't matter-and I'm enjoying this-so completely ::::::-----)))))

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

School Days


Recently this week on Independence day - I somehow went back to the fun and better days of life - school days:)...the sad thing is - I never realised at the time that I was living the best days - I was eager to get out and be someone - do something - and be someone's ...as the saying goes - the grass is always greener on the other side.

I ended up making a list of all those little nothings that make me feel good just thinking about ^_^ :

• Makin sure I had oiled hai - 2 plaits!
• Also that my uniform was ironed well, clean socks, polished shoes!
• Makin sure I drank down my cup of milk fast so that I wouldn't be late for school
• Singing the school anthem/national anthem
• Looking fwd to break time to eat form canteen!
• Feeling cosy in class on a rainy day
• Walking with hands behind my back when not in class but in school building
• Running up n taking care I make no noise with my shoes!
• Talking to my friend behind the hall on the green steps
• Picking up my tiffin from the school gate m lookin fwd to that hot food!
• Library reading time
• Gossiping about teachers
• Sitting in the scorching sun during sports / rally day
• Waiting outside the staff room for a teacher to walk out so that I could speak with her
• Teacher’s day cards ( not that I was a sucker for em / chamchi!)
• Crows coming and taking food (took my samosa once and scratched my thumb!)
• Feeling shy in front of seniors
• Feeling gd when I got all my HW correct
• Feeling like lil red riding hood in my red school sweater n red hairband!!!

That's all I could think of - lot's more incidents ofcourse - which I will treasure and have in me till I live...:)

Gd ol school days - goodie lil me;)

Wishes

I wish you could understand me

Instead of drawing your own conclusions.

I wish you could trust me

When I say I trust you.

I wish you didn’t look at this as one step back

And instead take one step forward and help me through this.

Because the root of ‘this’ is fear

And only love can eliminate the fright that drives through me.

Why is such a good feeling followed by anger, doubt and hurt?

Thursday was fabulous – gave me confidence – yesterday was an obstacle

Waiting to be erased by both of us.

How can I prove to you

That you’re still the only one I’m myself with

That you’re still the one I’m most comfortable with

That you’re still the one I want, need and pray for.

No words seem good enough

So I’m hoping my vibes will work in stealing the pain from you….

I'm happy and am in a fun mood! Here's a song that always makes my heart beat a lil faster than usual! So come on...Step up!!

Boy, No Matter What We Go Through
You Step Up I'll Step Up Too
It dont Matter What The Haters Say
As Long As You're My Boo
No Matter How Hard It Gets
This Love Will Have No Regrets
As Long As When We'reStepping On The Dance FloorIt's Me And You

Feel the rhythm of the beat
That’s my heart
Cupid shot me with an arrow
From the start
And you know that it’s your love that’s got me trapped
Every time I try to leave, you bring me back
So much water at times I cried a river
You dried my eyes and brought me back to laughter
And when I lay next to you I want to wake up
And when I break up
It’s only to make up

If we don’t step up
We’ll lose our grooveS
o confused, don’t know which way to move
Hold my hand and let me know that you feel me too
Look into my eyes and tell meBaby I love you
You’ll never get wet‘Cause I’ll be your umbrella
And we can make it through any kind of weatherI
f you step upI’ll step upBoy‘Cause
I’m with you forever

When I step in a place I feel my feet
Lifting from under me, you grab my hand spin me around and right before I fall
You catch me and you say baby it'll be okay
Just look into my eyes and we will make another day

Another day we will make - alot of years we have made - there's no looking back - there's no way but forward.......Steppin up is pure fun!!

I'm so glad YOU stepped up - and YOU stepping up means WE stepping up:)

Voila!!

I'm finally back - back to being me,

My only prayer is that I don't lunge into what I used to be,

India was a hurricane

And now the winds are finally settling down-finding their right place

Peace is what we all want - peace is what I feel inside of me:)

The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to youA
nd so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new...and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do...
And the reason is you

I realize that somehow no matter how hard you try

No matter how many times you put yourself in the other person's shoes

You'll never understand even a little of what that person maybe going through.

It's the equivalent of trying to eat a piece of bitter gourd(karela) but imagining that it's a pizza.

What I have now is something I always wanted

But never knew I wanted until I had it

And now I don't want anything else

Jerry McGuire

I was watching this movie JM yesterday morning...I started watching it only becus I love Tom Cruise as an actor-I think he's a real looker. As I was watching the movie I was glad I didn't watch it just for him-cus there's much more to it than JUST Tom Cruise. I liked what his teacher had to say in the movie..he said alot of points but the one that really meant alot to me was'''"If it's not in here(in your heart)...then this(your mind)...is a waste". It's so true...so many time we just do things because we have to do it...but if you just think and do it form within...things would be so much better and more fun too!
I also liked the small kid actor-he touched me right where it touches hehe!...The scene that made me cry a little was when he hugs Tom Cruise n kisses him before his Mom is going with Tommy on a date-it was real sweet and no words can describe that scene well enough! The kid's name is Jonathan Lipnicki.
Would love to see this movie again...I'm surprised I never saw the whole movie before.

Arooha...

I've been doing some thinking which is the kind of thinking I do when I'm in more of a perspective mood...the equation is very simple-it's pleasing...really!

When your hands are shaking cold....and everything seems to be going wrong.....when you THINK all your hope is gone ( I always believe you never really know how much hope n gusto u have inside of you)....all you gotta do is Be Strong, inside and out...

The message is loud and clear-MOVE ALONG!...Time is never gonna wait for you...it just keeps ticking away like your heart beat. Both will end simultaneously for you.

So people- even when you want to sedate yourself to stop all that noise that's going on in your head because of other people/circumstances...remember who you actually are...n smile-it's so much fun...try now:)

So recently, I was thinking a tad too much about somthing I probably should not have been thinking about..infact-I'm wondering if it's even worth writing about.....but I'm going to anyways.

I was wondering if this plant I've known for ages now will grow to bloom into a beautiful tree. Will it learn it's lessons well?...Will the sun be too strong for it when it's summer? Would it shed all it's leaves in winter and never bloom again? I had so many doubts about the side-effects of it's environment. I wanted my tree to be stronger and braver than it already was and so I started to call my tree the 'tiger'. I wanted to tame it. Then I thought to myself....why tame a tiger? What's the point in taming a tiger? If I don't let the tiger do what it wants then the tiger wouldn't be a tiger after all. I'm watching this tiger closely though...it's every move...and I'm ready to play with it and love it for it's insanity. For life without it's insanity would be no life at all.

The tiger is all I have on this bouncing ball...don't get me wrong-there are many other members on this ball...they are what make the tiger wild(members being of the inanimate kind, animate too...goes without saying =])

Watching this cat crawl about planning it's every move and breathing eery breath of life - even in it's sleep...gives me a high I can't describe. Nothing else seems to matter then - cause destiny is with me, guiding me towards it. I love the paradox=]

The Perfect Guy

The perfect guy is probably impossible to come across-it's a myth that never existed-and that was just a paradox! This list could bore some-but what the heck!Blah!

When he smiles-you wish it would last forever-but you know that can’t happen!
When you love the way his eyes twinkle.
When he talks to everyone in your family and they all love him and you can see it.
When you feel secure with him at any given place/time.
When you hold his hand-it feels ‘right’.
Whenever he calls/messages you smile and think you’re CRAZY!
When you fantasize about him-it’s heaven!
When you talk about him-you feel good.
When you know that no one else would have come close to him.
He tells you that what you 2 have is special and some fight/disagreement isn’t worth it cus he doesn’t want to try being with anyone else all over again-he’s a one girl’s guy!
When you know his shortcomings-but they somehow are over-shadowed by his being a good human being.
When you don’t mind doing anything at all for him.
When you wonder what he’s doing at any given time of the day.
When you want to do everything special for him every day-and when you don’t- you feel bad.
When you have to remind him about everyone’s birthday but he remembers your own!
When you don’t feel like eating if he’s sick.
When he says you look great even though you know you don’t!
When everyone wishes you good morning but when he wishes u-it feels extra special!
I could go on n on……the perfect guy doesn’t exist-but somehow the word ‘perfect’ has a new meaning when u love someone:)

I like you...

Just when things seem to go out of hand he helped her out of the quick sand. She felt secure and trusted him blindly knowing that she won't ever regret it. He makes her laugh at any given moment of the day-even if he's not in that laughing mood. He doesn't care if she's not looking her best at the end of a tiring day-for it's the inner beauty he values-is what he told her. After a thousand bad men you get one good one said Rudyard Kipling. She believed it was worth her while...finding him to be a true friend, a companion, someone she could pour her heart out to-knowing that he'll never get bored. So the journey continues-and when it began he told her it won't be easy but it will be full of love, hope and understanding to name a few things. So she took his strong hand in hers and they started their trail-a long, learning trail. Today-she believes she's the chosen one-with a halo over her head-it may not look to many that way-but she knows it and her God knows it and that's all that really matters at the end of the day. She prays the halo will never leave her head and she knows that when it does then she too will leave this world-for nothing is worse than the parting of two people-who know that they are here on earth for each other first and then everything else follows. It's an unspoken promise, an unthought prayer, an untold story that drives her through each day and each night. She knows that he's the only one who is worth seeing her deepest feelings.

Running Late

Have you ever woken up late when you're not supposed to wake up late and then rush rush rush?

I'm sure it's happened many times-today was one of those days for me...one thing I can't stand is people walking slowly when they know they are around people walking fast, (not that they have a disability or anything-I'm not that mean).
So yeah- when they're around people walking fast-they have two options-walk fast with them or walk slow but in a different lane. I mean- how can you just stand on the escalator in the way of all the fast walking late people???
Another thing-when I enter the MTR station it is clear to everyone that there's a stairway which is invisibly divided into two sections-there are even arrows on the wall-but no-nobody likes to observe lane discipline-they just come right in the way exasperating every inch of your fast moving legs-today I just felt like standing right in the middle and screaming my lungs away telling everyone to pleeeeeeaaaasssseee just move and make way for me:D
But I know I ain't no queen and neither am I that much of a trouble maker to shout at people...
And then when I'm sitting in the train I see a courier dude with a bag that says "Top Gun Express"...That's like my favouritest movie-how can somebody just nick the name n diss it in a way???
The cherry on the cake were the bright pink shoelaces I saw a bloke wearing-then I just laughed aloud, listening to my player and enjoying the ride to school!!!
........Take a chill pill Anju-u're only getting LATE:)

Abusive Language...

Oh damn! Oh ... You know all of them right?! I don't even know if this site supports abusive language but my best bet would be that it doesn't:)
I wonder why some people are so addicted to abusing - it becomes a part of every sentence - and they don't even care about the people around them-weather there's an old lady or a young kid...but then you think that the old lady must have heard/said similar things and the kid will eventually get into all that heap of ...!!
I personally never used to swear-but once I started college it becme a habit-not even knowing where I picked it up from. I have tried time and again to try to stop swearing even though these days its a rarity.
Well-I have no clue what the purpose of this entry was - so what the hell?! Hehehe-Ok-Let's try againg-wtf.......last time........What's the big deal anyways- just f*^k it! :D Craziness and wierdness rock!!

What is it that we all really live for?

What's that thing that keeps each n every one of us ticking?

I was pondering over this today and I had only one answer - we all feel that something's missing in our lives - it could be something different for each person but it comes down to only one thing.

No one is fully reliable except for the One.

Life is cruel to some early, some later, and some throughout.

But i'm happy with what is destined, I'm going to take on it as a joyride - knowing that I'm not alone - He's always with me and that's the only constant and reliable thing.

Maybe this entry has something to do with me visiting a temple today after a real long time, maybe it's circumstances that make me dwelve over things more - the fun person in me is naughty and always straying away from deep pondering - I'm gonna follow her and go along with the 'dagariya'..... :-D

Wanna join me?!

tujhase naaraaz nahi zindagi,
hairaan hoon main
o hairaan hoon main
tere masoom savalon se pareshaan hoon main
o pareshaan hoon main

jeene ke liye socha hi na tha,
dard sambhalane honge
muskuraoon to,
muskurane ke karz utaarne honge
muskuraoon kabhi to lagata hai
jaise hontonn pe karz rakhaa hai

I had never heard this song before, not until last week - and it really touched me in a way no song has....I have a thing for music-and this number kind of spoke out what I was thinking in those days. It's so true-we can't really be upset with life or God-we're just confused-trying to grasp at every ray of light-hoping it won't slip away-some people may think I'm crazy:-)......but hey-that's a piece of my perspective on life-we all want IT to last-it could be prosperity,happiness,health,love,clothes,feelings -IT could be anything-who knows when we'll have to pay a price for it and in what form?........Kudos for that:-)

Have I told you lately that I love you

Have I told you there's no one else above you

Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness

Ease my troubles, that's what you do

For the morning sun and all its glory

Meets the day with hope and comfort too

You fill my life with laughter, somehow you make it better

Ease my troubles, that's what you do

There's a love that's defined

And it's yours and it's mine like the sun

And at the end of the day

We should give thanks and pray to the one, to the one

Thanks star-this one's ONLY for you:) N ofcourse-thanks Rod - Music wouldn't be the same without yo!

Sisters

She's with u always-whether u want to realise it or not

We may fight, cry, be upset with each other for silly reasons

But somehow that doesn't really matter when we enjoy, laugh and love each other

Her voice cheers me up and I know it's two way

Yeah-life is more fun with sisters......it wouldn't be the same without them

3 cheers for sisters!!!!

Food

God didn't give us food to live for the sake of living, for it truly makes u feel like living-it gives u this inner energy-even if it's just the carbs!
I wanna thank you God.....for giving me food:)